And so on

I may regret saying this later but I feel like the summer is just dragging on. Listen - I want it to speed up. It would be nice if there was a way for it to speed up for me, but keep at the same pace or hell, even slow down for others. Alas, that is not possible...yet.

I feel like the above paragraph is gibberish. I don't know what I mean. I'm tired. Last night I couldn't get to sleep. I had all the lights off and the tv off in my room, but couldn't sleep. At one point I looked at my phone to see what time it was - 3:33 AM. I actually thought of Sonia Sotomayor, wondering how she was sleeping. Given this comment one could say things went well, regardless of how well she slept last night. It didn't matter much at work how well I slept either. I showed up, did my part, and left the same time as everyone else. Woo! One big cheer for monotony!

The boredom. It's driving me crazy and I don't know how to make it go away. I finished a book today. I liked it. It was crazy and interesting and almost bittersweet. I'm not sure what I'm going to read next. I have some books lying around, so that's not a problem.

Nothing new on the law school front. Orientation in a month. I haven't got my laptop yet, but I will hopefully soon. The bookstore on campus said they were ordering more of the one I like. It's just a matter of time now until it comes in.

The day is almost over and I'm beginning to nod off.

Goodbye, Blue Monday.

Nightmares

Recently I've been having some awful nightmares. For the past few days, I've been dreaming that I've missed classes. Not skipped them, but like I completely forgot about the classes in the first place. And in my dreams, this went on for weeks. Weeks where, apparently, I would just completely forget about going to class. I don't know what I did instead, but I guess I wasn't going to class. The strange thing is I've had multiple dreams of this type. Dreams where I only miss one week of classes, or specific classes, and the worst dream was when I skipped about half a semester's worth and received midterm grades where I got 2 A's, 2 B's and 1 C. All of these dreams have been incredibly upsetting too.

I think partly the issue is everyone I know has gone back to school, except me (and my friends at my Undergrad school). We don't start until Jan. 20th. I guess that just has been throwing me off.

The other part I think that has contributed to these dreams is that - I'm a nerd, obviously. I mean, dreaming about freaking out about missing classes. Seriously, who does that? Especially since I've already been accepted to some great law schools and really, this next semester, doesn't matter so much, grades-wise that is. Of course, I won't slack off...much. Just, yeah. Long story short, I'm a nerd. Could be worse I suppose. And by worse, I mean I went to a club last night with some friends and saw an erotic hypnotist (umm, yeah...a story for another time) but just listening to the people in line... good grief. I'm a little surprised that natural selection hasn't gotten to them yet. A couple of tidbits I remember:

A girl: "OMG those lasers are making me trip balls." wtf and oh, there were NO lasers...

A guy talking to his friends: "Yeah, just have sex with her. Then it's done. You don't have to talk to her again..."

A little later he uttered these gems, "It (sex) doesn't count if it's consensual. It says so in the bible. It only counts as a sin if it's not (consensual), then it's just sex." Again, wtf.

Oh...wow. That's all I've got.

So...(a different kind of post)

Still waiting on law schools to accept me. Accept me! Here that law school admission gods? C'mon...

In other news, I've never blogged about my 'love' life before, or rather my lack of one, because obviously there hasn't been a need to and I don't feel that it's relevant to the purpose I want this blog to serve (recording the law school admission process) but there is this boy who is trying it seems to ...do what boys do, or something like that. He'll text or facebook wanting to hang out and whatever, I turn him down. I just don't know. It takes a lot of talking and time for me to be comfortable with people and I just don't know him yet and when he keeps wanting to come over, usually at night, to hang out...well I don't know. Something about that makes me uncomfortable - not in a 'he's going to attack me sort of way' but a 'this is my space, MY SPACE, stay out, boys are yucky' kind of way. Also, I'm not attracted to him which could be an issue and maybe not. Maybe getting to know him I could be attracted to him, who knows. He's nice and took pictures of Obama on November 4th when he won.

Blah. I don't know. My first reaction when he texts is 'don't text me.' Which is probably a sign of where this is heading... just saying. So this is all probably for naught, but cathartic nonetheless.

Oh! and I took a quiz

Your result for The Attachment Style Test...

The Player

29% Anxiety Over Abandonment and 57% Avoidance Of Intimacy

You are most comfortable without close emotional relationships. It is very important to you to feel independent and self-sufficient, and you hate the idea of having to depend on others or having others depend on you. The very few times you have fallen in love, it was probably with someone unattainable and disinterested. You know how to have a good time with your friends, but when it comes time to bare your deeper feelings, you tend to laugh nervously and change the subject.

Fictional character with whom you might identify: Captain Jack Harkness (Doctor Who/Torchwood), Holly Golightly (Breakfast at Tiffany's)

Other Attachment Types:
Secure:	The Unicorn	|	The Cuddleslut	|	The Free Agent
Preoccupied:	The Cling Wrap	|	The Squid	|	The Insect
Fearful:	The Doormat	|	The Leper	|	The Exile
Dismissing:	The Hermit	|	The Stone	|	The Player
Confused:	The Waffler

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